Believe it or not, three weeks ago, I almost shut down Humidity is the Enemy.
Three weeks ago, I took off a week off from work to hang out with my mom. During the week, my mom usually babysits my niece while my sister and brother-in-law work. However, the three of them were on vacation that week, so technically my mom was, too. My niece has two turtles that needed to be fed while they were away so my mom and I packed our bags to enjoy our stay-cation at my sister’s apt in Queens. All of my looks are shot in Manhattan, so my mom suggested we shoot some looks in Queens to switch it up.
The weather wasn’t great on Monday or Tuesday but come Wednesday, the sky was clear and the sun was out. Before I continue, let me just state that my monthly unwanted visitor was on her way, which means I’m moody and bloated, my skin hates me and my boobs are double their normal size. I wasn’t really in the mood to shoot but I was in desperate need of new content, so I put my feelings aside and started steaming my first look.
I had this one particular outfit in mind for a few weeks that I couldn’t wait to shoot. I was so confident about this look that I didn’t even try it on – my first mistake. So I put on the top and pants and guess what? I hated the outfit. The top was a wrap around top that just wouldn’t sit right with the pants and after trying to figure it out for probably a half hour, I felt defeated and broke down.
My mom calmed me down and suggested I put on another outfit. I went into my bag and pulled out a pretty pleated dress that I wanted to shoot as well. I put the dress on and the zipper continuously got stuck in the fabric and wouldn’t zip up all the way. Again, I lost it and said “I’m done, I’m quitting my blog.” Call me dramatic but I let stress and pre-PMS really get to me and almost made a stupid impulsive decision.
“The moment you want to quit, is the moment when you need to keep pushing.”
I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason and certain things just need to happen, even if you don’t understand why in that particular moment. I will admit that I am very hard on myself and I put a lot of pressure on myself because I want to succeed. The blogging world is very competitive and there is constant pressure to stay relevant and consistently post new content. I am always reminding myself that it is not my job to compete but to bring something unique to the table.
I was angry with myself to even let the thought of quitting cross my mind because I am not a quitter. I put 110% in everything I do. Blogging is far from easy and comes with a lot of work but at the end of the day, I truly love it. The good, the bad and the ugly. I had a moment of weakness that gave me a wake up call and encouraged me to work harder. I remembered why I started this blog and refuse to disappoint my support system and followers. I don’t want to be just another style blog, especially when I have so many ideas for Humidity is the Enemy!
This wake up call has made me very inspired and motivated. I have been doing a lot of brainstorming lately! I am happy to announce that Humidity is the Enemy will be getting revamped later this month and will be back in September with a new look and new content! I am so excited to put all of my original ideas into place and share my new vision with you all!